God
is with me, we
do communicate
and we are
intimate! I’m
not worried,
anxious or
lonely in my new
retirement
because in it
all I am present
with God. I am
not as critical
with people
because God is
present to me!
It’s just
different.
Thank you Jesus!
What a blessing!
I see you in so
many places:
outside, in
animals,
weather, trees,
my husband,
music, getting
parking places,
etc.
Being in God’s
presence feels
like home to me,
it is so
comfortable and
ordinary in my
life that I now
am so used to it
I thought it
wasn’t there,
just because it
wasn’t this
elated, joyful,
bubbly thing
(like new love
is—Honeymoon),
it’s not gone or
far off, it is
just deeper and
part of me!
February 3, 2006
Where are I and
God in relation
to each other
right now?
This is the
question that
was presented to
our women’s
morning group
today. The way I
answered is:
I know God is
near, yet I
don’t feel or
hear Him.
I’m
not really doing
my part…I ask
for a heart that
desires and
craves His word,
yet I don’t pick
up my Bible very
often (once/week
other than
Sunday).
I notice my
prayer time is
mostly “thank
you” and
requests. I
don’t really
talk to Him all
day as once I
did.
I am pumping
sermons into my
head as not
before though.
(3/day)
I do want to
walk every step
with Jesus. I
notice I’m
changing; I pray
more for people
that I criticize
first (drivers
etc.)
He’s there and I’m there, maybe it’s just the “feeling” that is not so strong. (Feelings are fickle…) I think I need structure with study.
Then after the
speaker taught
some more, the
next time for us
to think and
talk to God and
journal about
was:
Where do I
experience God?
How does that
feel?
The way I
answered is:
I just realized
that all I wrote
on the previous
question is NOT
TRUE!!! God is
here! We are
close! I was
longing for the
honeymoon that
we had before
(Grace Church
era), but I will
not get that!
God and I are
maturing in our
relationship and
just like a
marriage, it
gets more
comfortable, the
giddiness is
gone but the
love and
presence in each
other’s being is
deeper!
I just went
through the lump
on my breast
thing and I KNOW
that God was
there, and I was
present to Him
and He was
present to me
the entire time.
From the time I
first found out
and up to and
the actual Dr
appt itself.